Have you ever told your story without realizing that you just did? Well it sure happened to me I was telling my friend why my parents got divorced one day. I began to go into detail and something happen… I was beginning to talk to my own fear of not having a marriage. Why am I thinking about not getting married? Am I afraid to be in a committed relationship because of what I experience and seen what happen to my parents? From what I remember cheating was an acceptable act in my household apparently. When you weren’t getting what you need in the marriage it was OK to receive it from someone else. The saying goes “what one man or woman won’t do another one will” was real in the flesh. So here I am believing that marriage is beautiful and desirable by God. It is definitely what I want one day. I will never be alone for the rest of my life. However I have realized that I am not ready for marriage yet. There are some underlying issues that I need to address before I can commit myself to a unconditional marriage. I refuse to be broken and have doubts about not have a healthy relationship.
Over the years I have come to know that before you can experience what God has for your life, you must first evaluate yourself. God has called us to be great , to be amazing , to be the best of everything that we do but so many times we ignore those things because of our own self. “I call that having anxiety attacks!” Everyone has their own personal terrorist(enemy) that tells you what ifs? “What if you will never get married?”, “what if you never make it.. you know your parents got divorce…”
However, the enemy is not after your dreams, desires and goals, it is after your peace! The enemy will take anything that will effect your peace.
So I had to question myself, “If peace is the treasure that the terrorist attacks, why do I not value it?”
I knew God was telling me something.. the only thing I knew how to do was lean on God. I went to the source (THE BIBLE)
“Do not worry or anxious about anything, but in everything (every circumstance and situation) by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, continue to make your (specific) request known to God. And the peace of God ( peace which reassures that heart, that peace) which transcends ALL understanding, stands guard over your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Whoa.. this is it! The truth shall set your free. I share this with you all because I know we all worry about our lives. What we have, or don’t have. But God! He wants us to get this and get it good—-
“Understanding what we do have, instead of focusing on what you don’t have is what changes your circumstances.”
I WILL NOT WORRY ANYMORE!
I HAVE THE PEACE OF GOD!
Thank you all for letting me share my thoughts. Now let’s pray.
Thank you for your word that is so true and knowledgeable. We ask that you forgive us for worrying and doubting your will for our lives. Help us to be more understanding of what we have and grateful for the peace that has been given to us. We are making our request know to you Father. We want to be better, wiser and teachable. We want our gentleness to be known to all people. Help us Lord. The world needs it. Thank you for gifting us grace. We don’t know where we would be if it wasn’t for your grace. Right now, we rejoice and give you reverence for the things that you have done! We love you today God. We honor you and we give you praise forever and ever!